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[May. 18th, 2010|08:17 pm] |
hello again...i dont think anyone would read this blog anymore so i have somewhere to pen my problems down
it goes like this
its like i took a year and a half to get over what happened and i found you...you put my heart back where it was...you made an impact in my life...and now you're saying its either them or you...i dont want to lose either but maybe i'll have to make a decision and i dont know which one i'll like... why does it have to come down to this... maybe i'm being unreasonable but all i want is to have what i currently have..i do not ask for more... and i'm sorry...i dont know what else i have to say to you....maybe this is the beginning or the end...a new beginning where i only have you, or the end of our relationship....
Waiting for your,
Call I'm sick,
Call I'm angry,
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight
[And I'm tired of being all alone,
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home] [4X]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have) |
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[Sep. 19th, 2009|12:38 pm] |
watching paramore videos on youtube now...they're damn good live
anyway, i've been writing a few songs here and there but i need new inspiration
oh, i have this rant about singaporeans...its like we all have this 'me first' attitude..where everyone is more or less very selfish..i'll give you an example...going up buses. its like everyone will try to go up the bus first and they dont care whos around them...they will just push their way through...another example is like in buses, most people will not move to the end of the bus but will stay near the exit door so that they can get off at the stop they want...and do not care whether theres space for other people on the bus...its very irking behavior
anyway, on a lighter note, 1 and a half years left to serve and then i'll be back to my normal life...SIM here i come!!!
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|09:29 pm] |
you're no Jesus,
yea, you're no fucking elvis
alright....i'm back
i've been thinking alot these past few weeks about stuff in general...and i wrote 4 songs over 4 weeks...not bad considering the past few months i've been having mental block....
i really miss studying....at least when i was studying i had something to do when i dont know what to do...now its like when theres nothing to do i have basically...nothing to do.
i swear i dont know why but everytime i go into my thinking note theres alot of stuff i want to blog down but when i get to opening my blog i always get a blank in my mind...
ohwells, to next time, cheers!
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[Jun. 16th, 2009|08:59 pm] |
i realised finally that i'm over you...i'm too good for you...no guy would love a girl for so long and not get any back in return...i was stupid....and i'm sure i can find someone better...even though we had so much in common but i realised that now i wouldn't even date a girl like you....i have no regrets about what i did...i learnt many things that is helping me or would help me....so yea, its just too bad.
and my army posting is coming out this friday...its like waiting for exam results...just that this will affect me for the next 2 years...
till next time...hopefully i wont have such an emotional entry again |
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[Jun. 11th, 2009|11:45 pm] |
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i swear i saw you, on the corner of the street
holding hands with a stranger i didn't meet
now how bout this he gave a peck on your cheek
but for once i didn't realise
he told you stories of places and lies
and you'd believe those stories if you'd try
you turned around and saw me with your eyes
someone at the corner of the street
chorus
cos its not about what you got or how you seem
but its all about whats hidden in your dreams
come take your hand and hold it with me
let's pray that forever will be with me i could see the glimpse in your eye
something reminded you of someone late at night
the way you shook his hand from yours
don't think about it this way, i know he'll never be seen again
bridge
and i could see you wanted to be
back here in the corner of the street
but i'm gone around the corner you'd better run
cos i'm running away from something i had done
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[Jun. 10th, 2009|09:39 am] |
i realised during army i toned down alot on my craziness to stay out of trouble..hahaha....and thats a good thing cos i didnt get into trouble or whatever and i could go back at the normal timings and not stay on for extra...
on a happy note, POP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ultra long holiday..hahahahahaha..wooooooooohooooooooooooo |
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[May. 30th, 2009|10:17 pm] |
i've come to realise that i've been depressed all this while and i'm only using army as a distraction...i've been depressed about almost every aspect in my life cept for myself...but actually all these problems were caused by me...but the depression has finally taken its toll on me...its hard to even smile nowadays...most of the time i'm forcing myself to smile so that no one will notice i'm depressed...i'm going to come out of this stage and i'll need any help i can get...
on a brighter note, 12 day holiday coming soon for me...meeting up with alot of people that i havent seen in a really really long time..
and i dont know where my heart is right now.... |
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[May. 2nd, 2009|10:46 pm] |
The shades gone up
Mothers staring down
She don't know where he's been
Or how long he's been out
She said 'Boy i'm tired of waiting up while your out with your friends'
He said 'Mom im TRYING and im living my life the best way that I can'
Cause i'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
The day has come
The SON is moving on
She don't know where he'll go
Or when he's coming home
She said 'Son take care, don't let your dreams get too far out of sight'
He said 'I love you now, don't worry about me you know i'll be fine'
Cause i'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
No
I'm not trying to be somebody else
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you
I wont ever let you
What they say
What they know
What they think wont ever bring me down
This life is mine and I am my own
I'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine I lead
Don't you know me?
I'm trying to be somebody
I'm not trying to be somebody else
This life is mine i'm living
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
NOOOOO
I'm not trying to be somebody else
Don't you know me? I wont ever let you down
I wont be nobody else
This life is mine and i am my own
the song's be somebody by 3 doors down
i realised that i've not had any real major achievements in my life yet....i've not excelled in my studies or sports...not anything else....and just another random thought i was having...like i ended my teenhood in the worst possible way....shan't go into details cos its long over but those memories will remain for quite some time...anyhow, i'm so out of touch with the rest of the world....i miss my friends....but this weekend is for me to recover from field camp...i lost ALOT of weight such that i'm back to the size i was in poly...but the bright side is that my belly has been replaced by abs :) ... and song writing has been put on hold cos my guitar is in camp and most of the time i dont feel like writing songs in camp...oh yea, and on a brighter note, i just have 1 more month in tekong and then i'll be out....9th june here i come!!! hopefully i get an 8 to 5 job or worse come to worse sispec...
and it really feels weird not having any feelings for anyone right now.....i've become like this feeling-less person...i cant feel for anyone, i cant relate to anyone....i have no idea what is happening to me...its like i pull back from interacting with friends....and even when i do i dont talk much...its as though all that has happened has scarred me real real bad...and the thing is i don't have a close friend right now to pour my emotions out....everyone is just a friend....its like i'm not letting in anyone into my deep emotions....like everything is just building up inside...i don't know what to do with myself.
someday i'll show you what i can do...but by then i may have forgotten you.
til next time, |
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[Apr. 10th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
i swear i'm gonna be sooo shagged come monday.....
tmr playing soccer in the morning then at night going to a party with amabel...but i'm not sure whether i want to go or not cos its like damn bastard her boyfriend isn't going and i'm her ex.....
and then i'm like deciding whether to get a psp or a ds cos seriously its damn boring in camp....during free time that is
good thing is i have my pay already :D |
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[Apr. 10th, 2009|10:54 am] |
my last post was a month ago...and i'm back...lucky for me army has been quite alright....its the social life that i've been missing..
anyway, just a random thought, the difference between a jc kid and a poly kid is damn bloody obvious...i dont know how to describe but when you see a jc kid you'll know its a jc kid and same for poly.
and its the weekend!!! 3 day weekend...then have to book back in again
but yea, i wanted to blog about something else but i cant remember what it is right now...so til next time, see ya |
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